Tilly turns four tomorrow and although I am taken aback by how swiftly the time has passed, I feel like she could be turning fourteen just as easily. She charms the pants off of everyone she meets and befriends almost every adult in her path. Kids? Pshhh. I want to get to know their parents and I’m going to ask them detailed questions about their lives until the cows come home. The other day she offered advice to her school-mate’s mom about how to take care of the her dying plant. Whenever I pick her up early from school, she has one of the teachers cornered, asking stories about their husbands, their youth, their houses, their weekend plans. Her favorite thing to ask people is about “medical stories” – when they have broken bones or been in car accidents and how they got better. Luckily, as an athletic trainer, Josh is a daily source of new medical stories and she just soaks it up.
The other thing I’ve noticed about Tilly this year is what a nurturer she is. In my 39-week pregnant state, she is gravely concerned about my well being! She’ll offer a hand to help me get up off the couch even when I don’t ask. We often take showers together and she will thoroughly wash every single part of my body with such care and thoughtfulness. It reminds me of that Audrey Hepburn quote, “if you want to have beautiful hair, let a child run her fingers through it every day.” I’ve never been so clean or pampered and am just in awe of the love she drenches me in… and my God, she’s only three years old!
I walked in the living room this morning and she had turned on the record player by herself and was dancing to The Seekers covering “The Times They Are A’ Changing”. I just sat down on the bench and marveled at her, but then she pulled me up and we twirled around together in the yellow morning sun. It was beautiful.
We had a lovely little park celebration for her fourth birthday in Golden Gate Park last weekend. I scheduled it early, since I’m due a week after her real birthday, and luckily I had plenty of friends and family to help put it all into action. We invited ten girls and their parents – they decorated foam crowns and strung wooden bead necklaces and had their faces painted by Grandma Jill and joyfully ate cake with their hands because I forgot the forks. When it was time to sing Happy Birthday, I let her make the announcement to the party guests herself. “It’s cake time everyone!! Come on over!!” she bellowed. Despite the foggy 61 degree weather, it was perfect. The least I could do for my little peach. Although I get wistful for the way she was at 1, 2 and 3 years old, I would never trade her current self in for one of them. She’s a beacon of light in our lives and I treasure every moment I get with her!
We spent our Valentine’s Day at Baker Beach, basking in the sun just west of the Golden Gate Bridge. (But staying out of that frigid water!) Tilly was especially talkative, and chatted with some crab fisherman for the better part of an hour. That night we made a heart-shaped pizza and assembled Tilly’s new big girl bed. Pretty fantastic day! New bedroom pics to come.
We’re so excited to be bringing another girl into our family! Tilly came with us to the ultrasound and just kept repeating “I’m having a baby sister!” the entire time. She seemed pretty relieved, haha.
I’ve still been feeling great, with the most boring pregnancy of all time. I’ve gained 14 lbs and have been feeling kicks since about 18 weeks!
We’ve been traveling a ton – we’ve flown to SoCal every 2 weeks since thanksgiving for holidays, a work meetings, a wedding, etc. Our plan is to stay put until mid-March, when Tilly and I board yet another plane to Long Beach, to go camping on Catalina Island with my work. The last time we did that I was pregnant with Tilly!
I’m having fun organizing Tilly’s room to make space for the baby. We considered getting T a twin bed but man-they’re huge! She’s going to finally move out of her crib and into a simple toddler bed from toys r us. I love the ceremonious prep work for welcoming a new baby. I know she won’t need the crib until a few months after she’s born but it’s just nice to transform our space as we prepare for her arrival.
In other news, we cut Tilly off of her pacifier, cold turkey! She was still using it at night and it was just time. After one week, she still cries for it every night but it is getting easier. I recently noticed that when she closes her mouth, her molars touch but her front teeth don’t and it freaked me out. I had always hoped she’d just get rid of it on her own but we had to go and pull the plug ourselves. She got to trade them all in for a new toy, which helped ease the pain too. She chose a purple unicorn named Nicholas (but it’s a girl).
I’ll end with this video, which we made for my brother John’s birthday last week. Lately we’ve been baking sweets for far-away family members birthdays and then just sending them pictures of us eating them in celebration of them. It’s fun to celebrate far away!
Last month we took Tilly to Disneyland for the first time!! It was an especially big deal for Josh and me since we spent so much time there growing up. We were already in OC for a wedding and a few days before we left, we decided to extend our trip by one day and go for it. We were thinking about going later this spring but 18 weeks pregnant at Disneyland is much easier than 30 weeks!
Two nights before we planned on going, Tilly spent the whole night throwing up. It was actually the first time she’s thrown up since she was a baby and she was pretty disgusted by the whole thing. She never had a fever, but the point of me including this detail is that she was at about 75% energy by the time we went to Disneyland on Sunday. It was a blessing in disguise because she never got too wound up or had any meltdowns or anything. It was smooooth sailing the whole day!
She went on three rides, Dumbo, It’s a Small World, and Peter Pan, and was most excited to meet all the characters, Ariel, Merida, the Ferry Godmother, Peter Pan, Minnie Mouse, etc. My sister and Frank met us after lunch and it was so cute to see the little cousins frolicking around together. The worst part of the day was the automated flushing toilets. Tilly wanted nothing to do with them! Luckily we found the family bathroom on main street, which has toddler-sized toilets with nice, normal flushing mechanisms. Phew!
We watched a parade right before we left around 5pm, which Tilly was mesmerized by. She thought the whole place was magical, and I quite agree!!
Here’s a peek at our Christmas Holiday. It’s funny how excited we get to put up our decorations after Thanksgiving, and then how we can’t WAIT to take them down after New Year’s! This holiday was especially exhausting for me. Oh wait, do I say that every year? We had Christmas Eve and morning at home in SF, then we flew out Christmas day to spend the night at my dad and step-mom’s. The next day was at Josh’s parent’s house, and the day after that was at my moms. Sunday we flew home, and then on Monday Josh’s parents came to visit for 5 days. They were helping Josh’s sister move in to her cute new Alameda apartment – lucky for us, they drove all the gifts we acquired back home, haha.
I so wanted to add “In the Morning” by Jack Johnson as the soundtrack to this video, but Facebook, Vimeo and YouTube kept busting me for copyright protection, so I’m stuck with this cheesy stock music. Oh well! If you know that song, sing it in your head. It was my Christmas theme song this year.
And these are the gifts we keep And this is the morning that we breathe And then we see These moments are the only gifts we need
I think I was in denial until this point. I just didn’t feel like anything was different and I forgot about it most of the time… but yes, I am now 17 weeks pregnant! It’s like it hit me after the holidays and bam, I have a big old belly and it feels real. The picture above is from New Years Eve at Kyle’s house on the delta in Discovery Bay. I may have been pregnant but it didn’t keep me off the dance floor!
We have a new obstetrician at UCSF, which is awesome because my appointments are just one floor above Josh’s office! We’ll be delivering in the brand new UCSF Mission Bay hospital which is set to open next month. I am really stoked about that. We’ll be finding out the sex on Jan 28… a big topic of conversation in our house.
Tilly is over-the-moon stoked about having a baby brother or sister. Whenever I leave, she says “I’m going to miss the baby while you’re gone” and even had a dream about it the other night – although she wants a sister badly, she dreamed it was a boy! She often puts her head on my belly and says the baby is talking to her, it’s so sweet. We answer all kinds of baby-related questions like How do babies eat when they’re in your belly and How do they get out of you… she knows about vaginal vs cesarean births and it’s hilarious to ask her to describe them. Very matter of fact. Actually, here she is sharing our good news on my facebook page:
Physically, this pregnancy is so similar to my last. I’m sleepy and feel like barfing when I brush my teeth, but no other major symptoms. But outside of the physical realm, it’s way different! I used to nap all the time and take a bath every single night. Now… there is no time for that at all! What was Mary’s bathtime is now Tilly’s bedtime, and working in an office now means I can’t just check out and catch some zzz’s. I mean, I could if I really needed to, but I’m mostly fine. I also really missed drinking wine with my last pregnancy, but I hardly miss it at all this time! So far I’ve gained 5 pounds, which I figure is average for the months of Sept – Dec, whether I’m pregnant or not. :)
All in all, I am less stressed and more “normal” this pregnancy, if that makes sense. My due date is June 13 – one week after Tilly’s fourth birthday. I’ll do my best to take weekly belly pics but who knows – writing on my blog is happening fewer and further between, but I know I’ll love to look back on it one day so I’m doing my best.